Tahun ini ...

it's complicated,
good start but kinda bad ending,

get the new perspective,
still alone,
fail to be a friendly and kind person,
get more arrogant,

love to be alone but hate to feel lonely,
discover the dark side of Haziq bin Mohd Huzir,
the other side of me is cool...

People accuse me of being arrogant all the time. I'm not arrogant, I'm focused.

Boooooo... (n_n)

aku telah membuat satu band performance paada hari khamis yg lepas... kitorang main 2 lagu.
Pieces (Sum 41) dan Muda (hujan)..

ni merupakan performance paling besar kitorg pernah buat. tapi aku rasa ni paling best. btw, aku tak takut sangat pon masa nak perform tuh..

ok aku cerita pengalaman aku ketika membuat performance tu.. biasalah.. first-first tu kenalah buat sound check dulu. tune.tone.volume. then bila sume dah ok baru bleh relax kitorg pun tunggulah giliran kitorang. When dah tiba gilirang kitorang, kitorg pun take place ahh.. amik guitar, bass sume,, plug in.. then dia bukak tirai....

aku pon bagitau lah nama kitorang. lagu yang akan dicover oleh kitorang. then get started.
Aku lead vocal and 2nd guitar.. so aku yg mulakan dululah.. first strum......... aku dah gelabah dah.. sbb bunyik dia semacam. Aku truskan but aku betul-betulkanlah sesikit tone dia sume.volume..(expert... time main pon boleh setting hehe..) ok sume dah ok.. aku nyanyi dgn penuh semangat through out the song.. pieces lah.. aku rasa diorang sume suka...
Haaa... ni lagu kedua. Muda.. Ok lagu ni kitorang tak banyak sgt practise baru try.. but ok jek.. diorg sume ikut nyanyi.... sampailah solo...................................... first guitar telah melakukan kesilapan besar.. dia main cepat satu atau dua beat dan down one octave... damn.. aku terus menghadap dia dan membelakangkan penonton sume dan try catchup dia punya beat.. ni yg susah jadik 2nd guitar kena follow beat first guitar.. at last aku still ta boleh ikut... pas tu aku tak taau nak wat apa sebab sume macam dah tak sync sgt dah.. aku terus pergi kat mic dan sambung jek nyanyi sambil tu betulkan lah beat dia sesikit.. sampai lagu tu habis.. tak lama lepas solo tuh dalam 1 minit gitulah.. dalam saat yg ke 19 itorg dah balik ke beat yg asal dah..  fuhhh..

tapi apa yg sedihnya apabila lagu muda tu habis jek... aku terdengar " Booooooooooooooo...".... hell yeah...
tapi sikit jek lah yg boo tu hehe... band senior yg mula-mula boo. Ciss. tapi sekejap jek.. so ok kot... band senior tu pun pernah kena boo dulu tu yg dia nak balas dendam ke apa kot... hehe

moral of the story... ni semua pengalaman dan perlu byk kan practise lagi... : )


next year, aku akan slowkan sikit band-band nih... SPM...

Today...

i hope, no matter what the result is...
it'll gonna be the best for your life...

and never think that u waste your time in there...

i love you...

nope..... we love you... you'll always be my friend and cousin...

-bleed

for you i bleed myself...

.dry.

-enough-

"if it's not enouh..."

"try again... and again..."

"over and over again..."

once, i talked like this... make me move forward... keep trying... never drop... keep moving......




" i'm tired of trying..."

then, i realized that... if i am trying too hard... it's gonna break me slowly... from inside...





is it " i'm tired of trying" or "i'm tired of crying" ?